I'm typing this in regards to your recent journal, on this account, which, to my watchers, if you want to know my new account, note me and I'll link you to it, but I do believe I have watched every last watcher of mine, already. But send the note and I'll link you to it. I'm not going to publicly post it at this point.
Tani, right now, the wounds are still very fresh. I'm....not sure if I can accept the apology at this point in time. I'm not holding a grudge however. Yes, I do hate you very much right now, for calling my art shitty, for saying people commissioned me just because they pitied me. For saying that my suicide attempt was for attention, which there are several others who can tell you otherwise and know fully what happened, one of which heard me over the phone in the hospital. It wasn't for attention, and it greatly upset me that you said that. I felt like...I couldn't vent without you blowing a gasket, and in turn, well...Hex got to hear me over the phone when I went into an episode. I was upset and angered by your words....However, that's the past now. It's better to move on. And as such, I am leaving this account open. Why? I want you to NOTE ME. There are some questions I must ask you, and I want to hear your side of whats going on there. Not just Turk's. Something I should have done before, rather than believing her. Because I do know of her habit to tell lies, rather than the truth, so, if you wish, note me what has been going on, then I'll pass judgment on what I think is truly happening. At this point, until I hear both sides, I'm not sure what to believe. But, I do want to hear your side. And perhaps you need to hear about what has been going on with me and hearing what I have heard said from your mate. So that you can vouch for yourself, rather than no one hearing you. If that's alright with you.
I deal with customers day in and day out, and dealing with stuff like this... well, of course I'm going to be upset!
But not as upset as I was with your mate. Lying to someone, and then lying to me....I don't appreciate that. However, you cannot speak for your mate. She is going to have to apologize on her own.
I will say this, it will take time to heal. I'm not going to forgive nor accept the apology until I hear your side of the story and you hear mine. Then and only then will I accept it.
And no, I'm no follower to my friends. I do dislike how you keep sayin that. As well as the worship stuff. But we need to discuss this privatly, rather than responding through journals. Deal?